Yesterday was bittersweet. It was the day that the headstone was finally finished and placed on our sweet little boys grave. For us, it made everything feel final. I was so happy to have something finally covering that bare spot of dirt, and it turned out beautiful.
It was also a day of remembering. It was hard because it brought back some very sad and angry feelings. We miss so much what we could have had here on this earth, and it hurts. I look at Lilly and feel sad that she won’t get to play with her two little brothers. I hope that some day I can think of my boys and ALWAYS think happy thoughts.
While we were in the Angel Garden at the cemetery I noticed a couple who stood crying over their tiny son's grave. It made me feel so sad for them because they may not have the knowledge that they will see him again. This made me so grateful for the knowledge that I have that I WILL see my two little boys again someday. But even with that knowledge, I still feel empty and sad over their loss; yet knowing that this isnt the end makes it bearable.
We put a Norway flag with the flowers because Gus's brother Nate is on a mission there
Kissing her brothers
9 comments:
I love the headstone; it looks great. I love the picture of Lilly kissing her babies. So sweet and emotional and so beautiful.
Jenny, that headstone is beautiful. I am so sorry this happened. I really look up to you and your whole family.
And these pictures, wow. I love it. So tender. And Lilly is so precious. I love her hair and her clothes.
You are such a wonderful mother. I hope you know that.
Oh, it looks so appropriate. I love the "Called to Serve" part. I know Lilly misses her brothers. And what perfect parents they have been blessed with.
Mom Henshaw
The headstone is perfect. We love you guys.
I wandered over from Family Damily blog.
I'm so sorry about your loss. I carried my twins six years ago. I cried almost every day of their long and crazy gestation worrying myself to pieces that I would lose one or both of them. I did not.
But to visit someone who did stops by heart and my breath.
Know you are loved...by those you know you and even those who don't (me).
Jenny, the headstone is perfect. It is so appropriate and beautiful. I love the picture of Lilly kissing her brothers.
Jenny and Chris,
We are so sorry for your loss. The headstone is so beautiful. Lilly is getting so big. She is adorable.
~Ashley and Brett Edwards
I really like the "called to serve our king" with the temple. What lucky boys to have you as parents and a loving older sister.
Jenny, I am in awe at your strength and your spirit. The pictures are beautiful, I think you definitely have talent and would do a great job taking pictures. If you ever need help with Photoshop, Tom used to teach PS classes at BYU so he can help you with any of that if you would like. ((Hugs))
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